The air is becoming crisp. It is lovely. It has such a distinct difference between the freezing temperatures of winter and so it makes for an ideal transition. Besides, who doesn't love the sound of crinkling leaves that carpet the sidewalks and the prospect of candlelit pumpkins flickering at doorsteps?
I am becoming adjusted to my life without my grandma. It's entirely different,yet still very much the same. I miss her greatly, but luckily I have many bits and bobs of her around me; I have the quilt we made together on my bed and other small mementos in my room that keep her near. I can say that I am truly grateful for the heartache of my previous summer because it prepared me to fully love my grandmother with every fiber I have and also gave me the perspective to know how to deal with the emptiness that has followed.
Oh dear, I didn't quite mean to make this such a weighty post after my extended break, but I think it was just weighing on me more than I realized...
In a more positive direction, I have been exploring many new jobs and activities to fill my time. I am tutoring some of the students at the college and have applied at a few local places to add some hours. But, the most exciting of all is my attempts at making connections with people in the writing community. It is so daunting that I do not even know where to begin, but I believe these conversations will be fruitful. I am looking for something which will replenish me and writing seems to be the most fulfilling.
Cheers,
Mattie Jo
aw, dearie. i lost my lovely grandmum too just recently. they have such a special unique place in your heart that no one else can ever replace. i'm sorry for your loss...i hope you can focus on the warm memories and smile for her.
ReplyDeleteenjoy the fall! i love it too! :)
-JD
Thank you for such a warm response. I was very lucky to spend my time with her as her caretaker the last few months of her life, so I was able to build many happy memories.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about the loss of your grandma as well. There truly is no place like the place a grandparent fills in our hearts. As long as we keep thinking about them, they will always stay with us.
Again, I am touched by your response. Thank you!
Have a wonderful fall,
Mattie
I'm so sorry to hear that. I wondered where you were. I'm glad you got to spend so much time with her though. It must be reassuring to know that you enjoyed her and her time here as much as you possibly could.
ReplyDeleteThanks love for your kind words. It truly is a blessing to have had the time with her.
ReplyDeleteIt really did cause me to slack on my blogging. I'm glad to always have your little bits and bobs to read through :)
Hope you are having a lovely day.